AnonymousHey, there! Hope you enjoy!“So, what do you think?” Lily asked James, after they hanged their coats and took their shoes off. The house was cold, so she put her cozy socks on before headed to the kitchen to make them some tea.
She and James had just arrived from a secret meeting with Albus Dumbledore, and they didn’t share one single word in the way home. The headmaster invited them to join the Order of the Phoenix, and explained all about the group and it’s goal, giving them time to think about the decision to be made.
“I don’t know, Lil.” James leaned on the kitchen’s table, his eyes clearly lost with his thoughts. “It will be dangerous.”
She stared at him, funny, as she prepared the kettle. “Well, that’s kind of the point, isn’t it?”
James didn’t respond to that. Something was really bothering him. Lily approached him, touching his arm gently.
“Talk to me.” She said, when he lowed his eyes to meet her green ones.
“To be honest? I’m scared, Lily.” James sighed. He was struggling with those thoughts for weeks now, and she needed to know what was hunting his mind. “Because I cannot bear the thought of losing you. And don’t get me wrong, that’s not about you’re not being able to, ‘cause I know you can kick some ass, if you want.” She smiled a bit, and he continued. “But this is huge! We’re not talking about tryouts, or school tests, it’s- it’s one mistake, and you’re done.”
James took a deep breath. “And I couldn’t live in a world that you’re not in, Lil. You’re my hole damn life, and- just thinking about it makes me terrified.” His eyes were filled in with tears, but he didn’t matter - he was a little bit relieved to share that with her.
“Oh, love.” Lily hugged him, resting her head on his chest and letting a small tear scape from her eyes. She couldn’t recall when she’d last seen him this concerned. “Every time you step out of that door, I wonder if I am going to see you again. And you don’t know how much that hurts.” She raised her head to look at him. “But there is a war going on- there are people dying everyday, and it kills me to sit around, watching it all burn down, without doing anything.”
She held his head between her small, cold hands. “Hon, I know we can make a difference. I know we can help out, and maybe- maybe end this, for God’s sake. Because we are good together, James, we really are.”
James hugged her tight, looking deeply into her eyes as his mind flew with all the different scenarios of accepting that offer. Of course she was right, and he would just have to get over himself to admit that. Maybe he could talk to Dumbledore, so they would work together, and that way maybe everything was going to be fine. Finally, he nodded. “Fine. But you have to promise me that we’re retiring whenever something changes.”
Lily frowned, and he explained: “If a baby comes.”
“Yeah, I think we can agree with that.” She smiled, touching his chin with her fingers.
He grinned too. “You know, I don’t think I deserve you.”
“Oh, but you do.” She said, kissing him softly. “And I love you more than anything.”
James Potter shrugged. “Yeah, I can live with that.”
As they kissed, the kettle sizzled with the boiling water, but none of them cared much about it.
